Guilty by Association

During these past few weeks, I have observed the heightened reality of my friends personalities, views and reactions. Some more extreme then others. I have noticed that some of my friends are self destructive, racist, self aware and genuinely happy by the struggle.


Granted people can be self destructive, but that is when I have to draw the line on whether or not it will affect me or not, and normally i do choose the path of letting it affect me. However that is a problem I need to fix myself.

The racism I cannot deal with, "I am voting for McCain, but i am not a racist" well I do not think your a racist because your voting for McCain, but I do think you are a racist because you are a racist. I won't deal with it and I will not associate with it. I do not need to give an explanation, I wasn't raised to have those feelings and I know you weren't either, somewhere along the way you lost all common sense about people and life.

As far as being self aware, some of my friends that I knew as bitter and upset have really taken a turn and have become so aware of of themselves and everyone else. Those people have become some of the strongest influences and have taken more of an important role in my life. The same people have also become ok with the idea that things are hard, will get harder and will most likely continue to stay that way. I won't lie, if things were easy i would be a lot happier, but then i would not have a reason to drink. Which i will not lie, i like to drink.

I think I am going to take an active role in this blogging. I believe I do a lot of interesting things, know a lot of interesting people, but I do not take the oppurtunity to openly document it.